You know those kind of romance movies that when you watch them you know you’re going to cry, even if you’ve seen them before. Where the couple has problems but they always seem to work through them outstandingly, and even though they have their problems… they always end up together in the end.
The kind of movie you watch and you can’t keep thinking through the entire thing that you wish with all your heart that you could find someone who is even remotely like that. Who is as kind and loving and thoughtful. But then the movie’s over and reality hits you like a bag of bricks. And reality tells you that you can’t possibly have someone like that because movies are written from scripts, and scripts aren’t real. It’s all memorized and practiced until the actors get it perfect; perfect to produce the effect wanted on the audience.
Well, I want to let reality know that it’s wrong.
No, I’m never going to have a Darcy or a Ronald Weasley or a Mr. Knightly or a Jack Dawson or a Landon Carter or a Westley… but that’s okay. That doesn’t matter anymore.
What I have is far better than any of that could be. Because what I have is real.
I’ve always said that I don’t want a Prince Charming, they’re too boring. They have no personality. I don’t feel I could truly love someone with no personality; it’s impossible. How can you fall in love with someone who’s perfect? I couldn’t. I would feel inferior constantly. Not to mention he would have no endearing little quirks, never say anything ridiculous… and if he’s perfect how can you work your way through issues to make yourself, your connection with that other person stronger.
I think I got slightly off topic, but that’s okay. It’s 8:10 in the morning and I haven’t slept yet. Want to know why? I had this urge to watch A Walk To Remember. I love that movie as a little girl, I wanted someone to come and make all my dreams come true like Landon did for Jamie. Their relationship was beautiful. But now that I’m older I realize that even if it was beautiful…it was still scripted.
But you know what’s important about that? What’s important about scripts? I’ll tell you. Scripts, writing, anything that is created is usually based off at least some emotion we feel, even if it’s tiny, it’s based off that emotion. Does that mean everyone has that potential to be a Landon? Or a Darcy? Or a Ron? Or a Westley?
Who knows? I don’t.
However, what I do know is that now when I watch movies like that, romance movies that are classified as “tearjerkers”, I no longer feel so alone after I watch them. I don’t feel like I’ll always be searching for someone better, for someone that will treat me better.
Because now I don’t want anyone else. I don’t want Darcy, or Mr. Knightly, or Westley, or Ron, or even Landon who bought his love a star and built her a telescope.
Because I can watch those movies and just be thankful, thankful that my life is currently blessed so much that I can relate to those emotions that the scripts are made to evoke.
Because now my life feels like a romance movie. And I wouldn’t trade that for the world.
I love you.